My fault

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Dad, you did some that whatever he did some things that were maybe poor choices as a dad right? Yeah like maybe I'm using drugs and he probably feels kind of weird now imagine like but I feel it's kind of like oop oh shit maybe... You know... But you know I went through a period where I wanted I wanted. I thought back at least the moment these little flashes of memory had when I was a kid and I wanted to blame it on that. Wanted to be like that. Oh my God, what the fuck were they thinking right? But.... You know I worked through that shit a million years ago... Generator some dead friend said bro. Maybe he was just trying to give you the thing that he found to be the the way he had best found to dealt with with pain and shit at that particular moment. Maybe he was trying to give you his life a worst case. Fucking scenario. What's the other side of that? You're fucking dad that went and fucking rode over bikes and shit cuz you knew we loved you that God damn much. You know I'll fucking take it. That's never been never even a choice of being a tiny bit. Why I get high or all this happened. I can't believe that my mom can make it so much about her..... Maybe I can believe it right? Like I've been kind of like that too. But like hey, go to a fucking Allen on meeting or something. You're not that big of a deal mom, you know but right now it's like going to kill me like that. That part is going to kill me way more than any of the most awful shit that could have ever happened to me as a kid if I would have been like all the worst things that people maybe could have possibly been exposed to there in the in the old trailer you know or whatever wherever her fucking a huge pain comes from. But sorry look great that out here and I'll put it

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