I was put in a position recently where I got the opportunity to finish something I started twenty-seven years ago. Once I really got into the work, something interesting happened. I woke up and realized I’m a 46 year old man, and I have been walking in place for a very long time. Treading water. I’m not sure what to make of all that time. Where the idea had been to escape something difficult and unnecessary, I found myself up against a wall that was between a boulder and a hard place. There is a rate of interest on an investment in arrogance. And boy does it pay dividends in pain and wreckage. As the years pile up, there seems no avoidance of circles coming full. I spent a lot of money on tattoos and stickers that don’t mean as much as the gray hairs and lines on my face. Funny how you can’t fake that. And maybe how you can’t read it without learning the language in lifes’ calligraphy. Not a lot of things in this world are done in a straight line. And...
Well, It’s finally here, dear reader. The next Tittilating tid-bit from the ever exciting and enlightening existence of your favorite blogger. Welcome to the Taylor Show. I never believed in ghosts. I was always sure that what I didn’t believe would never jump out and haunt me with love or pride… And I never thought it would be Megan who would turn me into goosebumps and jello old man brain with smiling fear and what love turned out to be in this weird show. What a long, strange , short , beautiful trip it’s been. And why am I so graced to have her sticking around to watch my back and make sure I don’t shoot myself in the arm over the girl of the decade and the latest horror show of regret and bad decisions. I wonder what happened to fritz And June Cleaver… Dave Haarhoff is dead. And David Scheidt, and Reuben, and most of the gang. Kurt. How am I the one still here? I’m not going to question it. Even though I just did. I live across the street from the Idanha, and the Langroice Bu...
At 47 years of Age, I find a lot of things in my life feel like I'm treading in stagnant water. I haven't exactly made a lot of progress on the goals other people have set for me. I have to be conscious of the present moment with intention or I'll find myself buying a new calendar every time I look at the date. My parents are a decade older than they should be by my count. Maybe it's a result of the drugs, or maybe it's just part of getting old. Maybe it's just part of watching TV instead of living with intention and getting to know the intersections of the amazing people I get to meet if I stick my head out once in awhile to see what's going on. So I'm getting myself together again. Or maybe it's more like getting rid of some self. I have been in places like this before, so I get tempted to skip ahead and know shit. I want to get right back to where things start to fall back on ego and separation from the parts of life I find the most value, grow...
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